Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage

So umm, parts of this are great, magical, intriguing, fun; other parts are ‘slice of life' and relatable, which are good, but I hated hearing about his sexual fantasies and dreams. And since I was listening to this as an audiobook it was harder for me to skim. Also breast are mentioned A LOT, and while I tried to have compassion that it might have been a fixation that one doesn't have control of it was still grating.
I'll be honest, I sometimes lost track of the characters and I mostly wanted to read this because I had heard that the main character might have been autistic.

Tazaki makes a lot of sense to me and I liked the importance/symbolism of names. It was a little confusing at times and hard to tell what was important. What was with the magic cloth bag and possible soul deal?

It ends with Tazaki ignoring the phone the evening before he's supposed to see Sara and find out if she's choosing him over a man he saw her with and hoping to propose to her...even though she's only said she's fond of him, whereas he's been very direct with ‘I love you' and ‘I want to be with you' multiple times.