Our kind of cruelty

I didn't know it was possible but I can say with all honesty that this book was a little too much for me. I wanted to give it the full five stars but there were some things and some parts of the book that just didn't do it for me, although in all this book is fantastic and a very intense, dark read.

It took me finishing the whole book to understand what made me feel that the book was too much for me, it was the lack of different perspectives and seeing things from different character's eyes. At first, I took the main character's truth as the actual truth but soon realized that he was very biased and deluded in his love for the heroine, V. This not being able to trust him and his words anymore really made me feel uneasy and didn't give me any real sense of closure, since his obsessiveness with V didn't let go for even a moment and we never really found out the actual truth, just what we could construct from his overly false sense of it.

The plot was also not the most exciting one, although it did have some more exciting moments towards the end, after starting off very slowly. I prefer books with a real mystery in it but this was just a simple crime, followed by everyone's different versions and reconstructions of the events that led up to the main crime. I hate that even after the book has been read, I have no concrete knowledge of who is lying and who is telling the truth, just my own opinions. I came out of this book with more questions than I started with and that is something I am not used to when it comes to reading novels.

The main character, Mike, he is very well developed and because we are always in his head, we get a very complete sense of who he is, although we can't be sure that what he is saying and also thinking is completely accurate to the events as they transpire. I have not come across such a complicated, conflicted and wonderfully intricate character in a novel in a very long time and that really pushed me to keep reading, even when the plot was mediocre at best.

The writing style was pretty good too, although it didn't flow as effortlessly as I would have preferred and the sentences themselves could have been cut down and made just a tiny bit more simple. Although now that I am writing this, I realize that the style of the writing makes more sense when I think about who's head all these thoughts are happening in and in that case, the writing fits very well in this individual situation.

All in all, this book had a lot of things I loved and also some that I didn't really care for. Maybe because I am already quite an intense and emotional person myself, the point of view of the main character was a bit too overwhelming for me, especially since it extended for the whole book. Maybe it just feels unnerving to me because as crazy as the main character is, I can also understand and see his perspective, even if I don't quite agree with it. I would recommend this book for someone who is looking for an INTENSE reading experience and wants to be completely immersed into the mind of someone obsessed with another person, not really someone looking for the most unique and exciting plot. I quite enjoyed it but it was definitely not a personal favorite.