Tell Me I'm Worthless

-I just finished this and I am at a loss for words. 
I think I liked this. I think that Rumfitt wrote something extremely strong, and the read is nauseating- at no point was I comfortable with what was happening to anyone or anything. I would read pages and need to put the book down and just think, and that does not happen to me very often. 
this starts as a horror story about two very broken people who had something terrible happen to them in a place where terrible things happen all the time, and it's also about fascism explicitly but despite that explicit almost manifesto-like theming rumfitt does not make you feel like you are just reading a manifesto with characters in it (and i don't think that kind of writing is bad, necessarily- and as someone who shares a lot of identities with some of the folks most hurt in this novel and who shares the political feelings, i'm not saying this from a place of “wah politics”) until the last two to three chapters. it becomes more explicitly a manifesto then, though certainly not fully.
and i don't know how i feel about it, or how i feel about the ending. i just simply do not know.
this is hard to read, emotionally. as someone who likes to read gore and body horror and fucked up shit (like Haunted by chuck palahniuk), i struggled with this. i think you should read it despite that, or maybe because of that. 
the chapter that turns into two separate stories told at once was super interesting, and i loved the change of format. the chapter before that where what happens to hannah is revealed toed very close to the line of “oh my g-d, okay, i get it,” but the writing is so... it's just so visceral i never quite got there. is that a good thing? who's to say.
i don't even know how i feel. i think i will have to come back to this.