The Gravity of Us

I dropped this book so hard. I was not even half-way through the first chapter when I knew this is just a no from me. The first three paragraphs made me wonder why they are there. I don't think I ever read a weaker start of a novel ever, and also one that made me instantly dislike the main character. Cal is a narcissistic brat, he gives off strong vibes of Gary Stu and that just ain't for me. I need real characters, thank you very much.

I found it strange how this amazing journalist (who is a teenager, mind you) is so dedicated and so good at this job he doesn't even seem to like. He reports on the kind of news that makes him 'secretly want to vomit in a bucket than talk about it anymore'. Well, why are you doing it then? Find other subjects, it's not like he had a boss breathing down his neck and telling him what to talk about, he had the freedom to talk about whatever. Later he has a 'dilemma'. Quote: Do I want to report on things people care about? Yes. Do I want more followers and viewers? Also yes. What's the dilemma there? You have two questions with two affirmative answers, no 'but', no 'or', no 'why'. Cal does not know what a dilemma is (also, we encounter a contradiction here). This whole part makes no sense to me. It's okay to not like the subject you are talking about (or writing about like I do right now) and still do it because of your own reasons. Pray tell, where is a dilemma there?

Apart from Cal's amazing talents, his way of making news so that the 'real ones' get pushed back and he single-handedly makes so that people lose elections, he is also toxic. Here's this quote: The irony of him 'loving' my posts when he couldn't even commit to 'liking' me. Oh MY G! This makes me so angry. That's not how it works, you brat! People can love your content and not feel any kind of attraction to you. No one has to like you just because it makes 'rage burn inside you' if they don't. There is no irony here, you are just being a piece of entitled shit. Holy f!

The second half of the chapter made me see Cal in a kinder light, but not better. He has a tough situation at home, parents shouting and fighting, not paying attention to their kid, okay, yeah, he has some troubles. The end of the chapter made me say 'what?' out loud. I don't get what Cal's aversion towards the Mars mission is, why his dad potentially going on it bothers him so much and, you know what? I don't want to find out. I've seen enough of Cal to know I don't want to deal with him. (Reading the synopsis I am made to believe Cal doesn't want his dad on the mission because he'd be pushed into the spotlight of media. You know, the exact thing he does to others. Now that, Cal, is irony.)

I didn't even reach the other main character, but that's fine, I'm not interested.