The Spirit Bares Its Teeth

I picked this book up for r/fantasy bingo challenge, but it's not worth forcing myself to finish it since I'm just not vibing with it.
There are a lot of degrading thoughts of the main character about their body that just made my reading experience with this book challenging. At moments I found them more disturbing than the graphic gory scenes, which definitely was the point but I just personally didn't enjoy reading about it.