Crush

This seizes me by the neck and forces me to admit how terrifying it feels to be in love, how the fear grows with the love until it becomes an obsession as well.

It forces me to admit that love often becomes a cycle of hurting and being hurt and then makes me laugh at myself for not even wanting to end that cycle. "I wanted to hurt you but the victory is that I could not stomach it."

It makes me love being in love when I almost forget how to.