Doctor Glas

Oh in the name of— sadness, suffering and truth! Where have you been? Where have I not read you? My Cathy whom I actually love and adore, an extinguished fire that I trapped and gave no warmth!

So yea I really loved this book! This is my jam I think, it feels a bit amateurish or naive in the best way. It asked for things and I did not need to beg for them, it did more than I hoped. The ending was okay, but I don't care. The vibes! The vibes!!! This is like a depressed teen idolising some shadow of a dream!!  I love the themes, the discussion of death in various ways, I love how they are the highlights and not something else. The colours and the scenaries the protagonist paints! All this journey he despises, it is art and gosh is his understanding of art so odd. 

I grabbed a bunch of chilli pepper flakes and then shoved them on my meal to compliment this spice. I went on a walk and dreamt of impossible imagery and went beyond pain in my mind. I am so sad over this depressed twink doctor, why is life like this to him?? :(( If he was gay I would time travel and become fictional.Okay maybe I should stop writing these questionable things, but omg what a book :(( I will cry a river. You get me, you understand me. Maybe I should read some more morbid books like Anna Karerina, Nausea, something from Schopenhauer or something like that. Mood.

Edit on April 8th: I would like to mention that this discusses abortion and is considered antinatalist in parts. This is a book which highlighted those concepts and caused controversy in 1905.