Goodbye, Paris

Regular readers of my blog know that I'm not a big fan of Contemporary Fiction. This, however, blew me away. Goodbye, Paris, is one of August's Books of the Month, and as usual, it is outstanding. I don't know how they consistently pick amazing books, but month after month they bring a bit of magic.

I started this book thinking “oh, she's a musician, I can get into that,” but I didn't know how much the author was going to explore that facet of her life. But right away, on page 14, our main character did something that made me gasp aloud and stop and actually write in my book. Which is a thing I don't do. Grace plays cello the way I play piano. She's far more skilled than I am, but - well just read:

“My knees poke out, bony and white, cushioning the pointed lower bouts of the cello, and the scroll rests, where it belongs, against my ear. The cello takes up its rightful place and I become nothing more than a mechanical part of it.

This is what I have always done, how I have always found myself when I've been lost. When I first went to music college, eighteen years old and paralyzingly shy, when ringing my parents from the pay phone in the corridor just made me miss them even more, I would feel the strength in the neck of my cello, flatten the prints of my fingers into the strings, and forget.

I play and play; through thirst, past hunger, making tiredness just a dent in my soul. I play beyond David's marriage, his holiday, even how frightened I was when he disappeared below the platform.

I play on until the world is flat again and the spaces between my heartbeats are as even as the rhythm on the stave in front of me.”

This is how and why I play piano! To see it so gorgeously described on the page was breathtaking. I am not a concert-level pianist by any means, but I'm decent, and playing piano brings me back to myself. When I'm angry or frustrated or hurt or simply feeling down, the music centers me and makes me focus until everything else falls away. From this point on, I was enthralled with this book and with Grace.

Grace's partner, however, I was not so enthralled with. Grace and David have been together for eight years when the book opens. David has been married for all of those years, which Grace knew the night they met. (Though after they fell in love - it was one of those lightning-bolt-from-above things) He had two children with his wife, though, and a third on the way, and because of the crappy way he grew up, he was absolutely unwilling to divorce and mess up his children's lives. Which, okay. Noble. (Though honestly, most children know when their parents are unhappy and wish they'd just divorce already, as Nadia, one of Grace's friends, illustrates.) He and his wife both know their marriage is only for the children at this point, and are totally okay with relationships outside the marriage. Grace, however, is unaware of this arrangement, and THAT'S where my irritation at David comes in.

I don't talk about it much on my blog, (though I have mentioned it) but my husband and I are polyamorous. He's had another partner for almost five years now, plus other occasional dalliances. But everyone knows this. His other partner and occasional flirtations all know about each other and about me. David, on the other hand - his wife appears to know about everything, but Grace only knows about his wife. We're never told what his other girlfriends know about. This isn't ethical non-monogamy. He lies to everyone about his intentions and relationships. I think he's probably incapable of monogamy - some people are - but he needs to be truthful about it. There are ways to make that work without ruining peoples' lives and breaking hearts!

So David is not a character I like.

Mr. Williams and Nadia, however, are amazing. So besides playing the cello, Grace also makes cellos. And violins, and double-basses. Nadia is her shopgirl, and Mr. Williams is an old man who brings her a violin to repair. These three become such an incredible little trio! Nadia and Mr. Williams are the ones who put Grace back together when her life gets turned upside down, and are saved themselves in turn. Nadia is a little prickly, but I think it was her way of protecting herself. Mr. Williams is too old for games - at eighty-six, he doesn't fool around anymore.

I loved this book. Book of the Month has once more made an outstanding pick. The characters and emotions are beautiful and heart-rending and magical. I think this is one of my favorites of the year!

You can find all my reviews at Goddess in the Stacks.

Some spoilers

Grace has faced terrible events in her life, and she has succumbed to them, retreating from life. She has ended up as the secret mistress of a married man, unable to play her beloved cello, childless, a lonely life.

But is it? When yet another terrible event occurs in Grace's life, she destroys everything, and with the help of two unlikely friends, she rebuilds everything back, stronger than ever.

If you can suspend belief several times in the story, you may enjoy this very thoughtful story about rebounding from adversity.