Hopeless

There were a few times (a lot of times) I considered chucking this book, but I actually finished.

Reasons why I almost quit:
1. Outrageous names like Six, Sky, and Dean Holder-but-of-course-he-goes-by-his-last-name.
2. Slut shaming.
3. Gay bestie trope.
4. Creeptastic and volatile male lead.
5. Teens who have dialogue that is either completely unrealistic or should be coming from the most ridiculously well-rounded adult ever.
6. The constant, and I mean freaking constant, misuse of lay/lie. It hurt. It hurt me so much. Ow...

Reasons why I kept reading:
1. Must know big twist.
2. Must see if I'm right about a possible second smaller twist.
3. Must see how the actions of the male love interest are explained away and if it's satisfactory reasoning. Verdict: meh, kind of?
4. Actually awesome sexual tension. That was intense and obviously where Colleen Hoover excels.

Focusing on Mr. Intense Dean Holder for a minute. I've read worse. He could have been way worse. I see a lot of reviews ragging on Holder for remembering small details, but I've been there. I've kind of been Holder. I'm intense. I have an uncanny memory for recognizing people, remembering names, dates, or just general info about someone. This freaks people out. I've been freaking people out for years. My good memory has traumatized people before. Poor me. And hopefully poor Holder settles with age. Man, stop punching things. Therapy will help.

I almost need therapy after how much turmoil was in this book actually. That shit was rough. Someone needs to add some trigger warnings somewhere.

Music that fits
Oh Wonder - Livewire https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qjgnOP8f5NU
Made In Heights - Murakami https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YEy1yZwJ-ko