Borderline

Pros: fascinating protagonist, thought-provoking, interesting mystery

Cons:

Millicent Roper, director and UCLA student, is in an institute for borderline personality disorder and an attempted suicide that left her with two prosthetic limbs and a lot of physical and emotional scars. When Caryl Vallo approaches her with a job offer, she's intrigued by the secrecy surrounding it. The Arcadia Project regulates travel between our world and Arcadia, and one of their nobles hasn't returned as scheduled.

I picked this book up because the protagonist has several physical and mental disabilities. I kept reading because the writing is so damn good.

I was a little afraid that I wouldn't like the protagonist, as she's introduced as bitter and sarcastic. But as the story's told from her point of view, the reader's included in her thought process - why she acts the way she acts, and therefore gets to see the disconnect between her thoughts and feelings and her actions. In other words, she's not a particularly nice person from the outside, but from the inside you really sympathize with her. Much of the division between what she feels vs what she does comes from her borderline personality disorder, but there's also an element of ‘I've been hurt before so I'll keep others away so I can't be hurt again'.

I'm not qualified to judge the accuracy of Baker's depictions of prosthetics, wheelchair use, and mental disorders, so I'd be interested in hearing from those who are. It was wonderful to see a protagonist deal with physical and mental disabilities - especially referencing the psychiatric treatments that help her deal with the borderline personality disorder.

The book is interesting because Millie works with several other damaged people, who aren't very polite towards her but are likely just as sympathetic, if you saw inside them. It's understood that they've all got issues of some sort - like Millie, but she's not always told what their issues are. On the one hand, I understood that as a privacy issue it should be left to the individual to decide if they want to tell their story. On the other hand, I suspect some of the personality clashes in the book could have been resolved if everyone understood what everyone else is going through / what their diagnoses are - so they could avoid triggering negative reactions in each other.

One of my favourite things in the book was the calling out of unintentional/unconscious insults/racism. These include things she does and things she notices others doing to her.

You're slowly introduced to what the Arcadia Project does and it's quite interesting. The world expands a little at a time with each revelation to Millie about what's really going on. And she's a very clever protagonist, seeing minor clues and putting things together in ways I didn't catch. The mystery was really interesting, with several twists I didn't see coming. The world is soundly built, with rules - quite specific ones - and lots of room to expand.

This is an excellent urban fantasy novel that doesn't follow the trends. There's no romance, no ass kicking, just damaged people trying to get by in a damaged world.

I feel a little unsure about Borderline. There's a pretty standard urban fantasy plot, centered around an unapologetically, no-holds-barred borderline personality disordered protagonist. And I felt towards it the way that years of being in the medical profession has drilled me to react to borderline personality disorder: man, it's kind of fascinating, but best observed at arm's length. The portrayal of borderline personality disorder is eerily accurate, but also extremely sympathetic. The book has received much accolades on its portrayal of BPD, and I think a lot of that is deserved: this is clearly the best portrayal of BPD in the literature, one of the few protagonists I know of with BPD and its take is quite nuanced. However, at some point, I also felt like Millie got too much of a narrative pass for her behavior and it was pretty clear to me from the writing that the author herself had BPD (indeed, she does.) The way that this is clearest to me is that there's a sense when you're around someone with BPD that their behavior and actions are amped up to a hundred to the point that no one around them has any space, and the book completely treats Millie that way – all of the other characters are flat and under detailed. Even the plot grinds to a halt to serve Millie's internal churning. Perhaps that's part of the realistic portrayal, but it's kind of off-putting as a reader. What redeems the book for me is Baker's portrayal of Millie's inner self, her suffering and her (meager) attempts at getting better.

Overall, I found this book a fascinating insider's view on borderline personality disorder, but kind of flawed as a novel.