The Keeper of Night

CW: bullying, assault, racial slurs, violence and gore

It's probably more of a 4.5.

I used to be quite disinterested in reading any dark fantasy until a while ago and probably why I used to read a lot of YA because they could be gritty but never too dark. But that changed when I started exploring books mostly written by BIPOC authors which blew all my assumptions about the subgenre, and I have read quite a few amazing ones since then. And that's how I found this book on my tbr. And I find myself lucky that I received the audiobook advance copy because it was just wow.

I didn't know much going into this story, so it was actually a pretty surprise the way this book started. It set the tone for what was to come and it only got more intense. The author is brilliant at creating the atmosphere in this story. As we are dealing with Death and Reapers and Shinigami here, it's really interesting how oppressive and suffocating the setting feels, even more augmented by Rebecca's narration. The writing is very evocative and searingly emotional, forcing us to feel everything that's happening. The story does start off a bit slow but immediately picks up once Ren reaches Japan and from then on, it's like a bullet train ride with no brakes. The author also uses many creatures from Japanese folklore and mythology in her plot, interweaving their legends with the lives of our characters, making for a very exciting read. But the many confrontational scenes are what will leave a mark on any reader because they are very gory and violent and explicitly described, making them feel even more scary and horrifying when listening to them.

Ren is a protagonist whose arc is a masterclass in characterization. She is biracial and has always been made to feel less and worthless and unwanted due to her mixed heritage, but she has kept it all bottled up because she doesn't have much choice. But once the dam breaks, we get to see just how much rage and wrath she has been hiding and what she is ready to do to finally find her true place in this world. She is extremely frustrating as well as equally sympathetic at the same time, and that's what makes her a compelling character. We want to hate her because she is making horrible decisions but also feel like she finally deserves to do what she wants. It's a tale of contradictions, the descent into the thirst for power, the rise and fall and transformation of a powerful woman who is ultimately lonely despite being surrounded by thousands.

And then we have Neven and Hiro. Neven is Ren's brother, the compassionate and merciful among the two, who is the moral compass trying to pull away Ren from a path of no return. But he is not always successful because her deep anger and sadness is not something he can understand, because he has never had to feel unwanted or bullied because of his heritage. Hiro on the other hand is a charming man who instantly ignites a feeling in Ren, encouraging and supporting her in everything that she needs to do to achieve her goal, however distasteful the task might be. They are an unstoppable force when together and it's easy to get lost in their love story.

But ultimately this is a story of death, not love. The author weaves a terrific tale of power and anger and hope, and what happens when all three come together. This is harsh and brutal but extremely unforgettable, with the narrator's voice remaining in our head long after we've finished listening to the audiobook. And what an ending that was. The last 10-15% seems both predictable and utterly shocking and it left me gasping because I couldn't believe it all happened... and kept happening. I can only guess what more horrors we'll have in store for us in the sequel but I'm ready to take the plunge.

First, thank you to the publisher and Goodreads for sending me this ARC as part of a giveaway.

Ren, a British-Japanese Reaper has grown up in Britain, collecting the souls of the dead to pass along to Death. Being biracial, Ren has never really fit in as a British Reaper. When her Shinigami powers manifest in front of other Reapers, she decides to run away to Japan with her half-brother, who is a full Reaper. She hopes that the Shinigami there will accept her. What greets her in Japan is a much darker, brutal place than she was expecting. She must complete a quest for Izanami in order to become a Shinigami, but at what cost?

I honestly went into this book having no idea what to expect, but it definitely wasn't this. I had no idea how dark Japanese folklore was, and this book pulled no punches. First, Ren is the epitome of a morally grey character. I sometimes have a hard time with these types of characters. For me, there's a fine line before they're just unlikable. But I feel like Ren's motivations really make her so interesting, even if the things she does are wrong most of the time. The plot was incredibly fast paced, while the visuals were so entrancing and beautiful, even if they were, quite literally, dark. The struggles Ren faces from being biracial were so complex and really who Ren is as a character. I didn't know there would be another book in this series, and now I am waiting on pins and needles for the next book. This ending was WILD. I honestly think that this could read as a sad, dark stand alone, but I am also so excited to see what Baker creates next.

TW: ableism, amputation, assault, attempted murder, blood, bones, bullying, child abuse, child death, death, decapitation, demons, emotional abuse, fire, genocide, gore, gaslighting, kidnapping, murder, skeletons, slavery, starvation, torture, violence

 ngl at first this was a solid 2 star but that ending made up for it
nevan was an annoying little bitch but i actually ended up liking him at the end
ALSO i thought this was another instance of insta love but  TH  AN  K F U CK  it isnt !!!! its pure lust and she fucking kills him at the end 10/10 ALSO lets talk about the fucking scene around page 300 ???? WHY DID THEY START FUCKING PASSIONATLY MAKING OUT LMAOOAOAO AOA?????? HE MOANED AND EVERYHTING WHAT THE FUCK LFAOOAOAODADGAYDGD  
all n all i actually loved this book and will b reading the sequel but holy shit it is a WILD RIDE
music listened to: Shadow Temple Theme from Ocarina of Time
time taken to read : 5:12:30