The Way I Used to Be

I somehow read 95% of this book in a day. I couldn't put it down - it was a fascinating but very difficult read for me, and for me, a really, really important story to read. Really well done and definitely an eye opener for those who haven't experienced this kind of trauma.

i read this almost in one sitting. i listened while i read along physically & wow. i understand why some people didn't like this but i personally loved it. i felt very seen with edy. it hit so unbelievably close to home but in a way that wasn't triggering which is... so weird? i'm definitely going to read book 2 because i am rooting for edy to get justice. i also hope josh is in it. i want to put him in my pocket & protect him all the time. 

TRIGGER WARNINGS: 
bullying, slt shaming, sxual asault, graphic rpe recounts, acohol & dug consumptions, strong themes of trauma 

censoring tw's so storygraph doesn't hate me

This book surprised me. I didn't think I would enjoy it much because it is a YA book, but I was pleasantly surprised. I thought the author dealt with the topic of rape in a sensitive, yet honest manner.

The main character of this book, Eden, is raped in her own bedroom by her brother's best friend, who is four years older than she is. It is brutal and traumatizing. She does not tell anyone out of fear, and the event has lasting, negative effects on her. It alters her attitude and personality, changing her from who she used to be into someone even she doesn't like. It impacts her relationships with everyone around her because she cannot trust anyone. It is sad to see Eden's struggle. It is even frustrating at times because there are people who love and care about her, but she does not see past her pain and distrust.

This book made me cry at times because I felt so much sympathy for Eden. The book is emotional and poignant. I would highly recommend it.