This Might Hurt

Sometimes I will pick up a book because of the cover alone, and that's what I did with this one. Because no matter what ya say, it has a GREAT cover. The story however...not so much. I'm all for slow-burns, but this one lacked the burn and had waaaay too much of the slow! It dragged on to the point where I felt impatient to get on with it, but then lost my interest and dnf around halfway through. With more tension, maybe this book would've hooked me, but it just felt bland, and for that, my reading experience went a lot like this:

This Might Hurt opens on a shocking, perhaps even horrifying note with what appears to be an extreme piece of performance art. It was pretty cringe-inducing for me, and I'd say skip it if you're squeamish, but it does serve a purpose to the story.

From there, we follow two sisters, Natalie and Kit, dealing very differently with the death of their mother. Decisive, strong Natalie throws herself into her work. Mild, discontented Kit has taken off for a six-month self-improvement stay at Wisewood, forgoing contact with the outside world so she can try to figure out if there's more to life. Natalie receives a mysterious email from within Wisewood implying that a long-held secret will be revealed to Kit if Natalie doesn't tell her first. Will she sort things out with her sister? What is the secret she's hiding? Can she persuade Kit to leave the clinging embrace of Wisewood? Grab the book and see for yourself.

When I read the blurb, I wanted to read this book. I am a sucker for a good suspense novel, and this one sounded like it fit the bill. It didn't quite live up to my hopes for it, though.

The story unfolds from three different viewpoints: Natalie's, an unknown woman's, and Kit's (which felt like it took a long time to surface in the book). I first took the unknown woman to be either Natalie or Kit, but then there were references to her sister Jack. That made the unknown woman's narratives fairly confusing to me, as I couldn't figure out who she was for a good chunk of the book.

Some of the topics covered in the book, centering around the unknown woman, make for hard reading. Her father is horribly abusive and controlling, making her earn points to pretty much do anything – I mean, she has to earn points to sleep. It is her father's abuse that pushes her to pursue a life of learning to face and conquer her fears, and to pursue a career in magic, and later mentalism, against his express wishes. The sections describing her interactions with Sir, as she calls her father, are deeply disturbing to read, and the descriptions of the extent to which she takes her performances are also sometimes difficult.

And when we got to the big reveal of the secret, it was a little bit of a letdown. I mean, Natalie says about the secret, “I have no idea what Kit will do when she finds out,” so the reader is expecting something earth-shattering, devastating, shocking. Given the circumstances in which the secret took place, it wasn't that big of a shock to me. I wasn't gobsmacked. It seemed like a pretty shallow root to bring forth Natalie's huge fear of Kit finding out.

Wrobel's writing style is easy to read, and she does a good job of drawing out compassion for our characters, even though none of them are terribly likeable. The book was good, it just wasn't what I'd hoped. If you like a story that examines how far people will go to master their fears, that gives off a creepy vibe that has you resisting the urge to look over your shoulder, This Might Hurt may be perfect for you.

Thanks to Berkley and NetGalley for an advance review copy. All opinions here are mine, and I don't say nice things about books I don't really like.