We Begin at the End

Where to even begin with this one. I probably wouldn't have normally have picked this book, but it was an option given to us via the Pigeonhole app. I decided to give it a read and omg I am so, so glad I did!

It was a such a sad and heartbreaking story about family, sacrifice and how one action can have a chain reaction of consequences for everyone involved. Chris has written this book so well that as you went on Duchess and Robin's journey with them you literally felt their pain, their sadness, their heartbreak. Duchess was such a amazing character. You had to admire her strength, her courage, her bravery.

It is honestly the best book I've read in 2020 so far and I couldn't recommend it highly enough. This book truly will stay with me for a long time.

magical story telling. I loved the characters and the unfolding of the old mystery mixed with the new mystery.

I'm a bit shocked I gave this 5 stars, half way through it was feeling like a run of the mill 3 star book. The lack of the typical elements of a crime novel, investigation/evidence etc, disappointed me for much of the story but over time the book really snuck up on me and by the end this difference was it's greatest strength. It's rare that a book can make you care so much about its characters and rarer still for it to also surprise you at the end.

Shouldn't have read it just before moving away from my family for a job in another city.

This originally appeared at The Irresponsible Reader.
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Thirty years after (the then minor) Vincent King was imprisoned for killing a girl, he's released to a world he can only barely recognize. His childhood best friend, now Chief of Police, picks him up from prison to drive him back to the small coastal town they grew up in. Geographic changes, economic changes, societal drift, and other pressures have radically altered this community.

But some things remain—the high school jock who's athletic future was derailed by an injury still drives the car his father bought while he was in High School, and works to recapture the physical condition he was in then. Chief Walker—Walk—is still hung up on his high school sweetheart (who moved away not long after King was imprisoned). And Star Radley, Vincent's then-girlfriend, and sister of his victim, still lives in town, still shaped by the events of thirty years prior.

Star has two children—thirteen-year-old Duchess and her little brother, Robin. Duchess does most of the care-taking of Robin, feeding him, getting him ready for school, making sure he's sleeping. She's doing everything she can to raise Robin (and protect him from the world), and to keep her mother healthy for Robin's sake. On the eve of Vincent's return, Star tries to overdose on pills—and not for the first time.

Walk's a constant presence in the lives of Star, Duchess, and Robin—but not a necessarily welcome one. Still, he's the steadiest and most reliable adult in the children's lives (and in some way, Duchess does depend on him and look up to him).

That's the status quo that King's release upsets. What follows is a chain of heartbreak, calamity, tragedy, violence, vengeance, and depravity. There's a little glimmer of hope, too—but it's hard to find, and there's a lot of suffering surrounding it.

Whitaker delivers this in lean prose, without wasting a word. It's almost as if he took Leonard's rule to “leave out the parts that people skip,” and dialed it up to 11. The prose matches the emotions, the characters—beauty, ornament, sentiment have no place in their lives, and it's largely empty from the novel. There's not a word out of place, each one carefully placed for maximum impact and effectiveness.

Each character has a depth that you don't always see. Whitaker doesn't explore the depth too much, doesn't explain it—but he shows that it's there. Duchess, in particular, is a character so well drawn that I can practically see her. I won't forget her anytime soon.

There are some problems, not many, but they're there. The text in the ARC (and perhaps this will be addressed in the final text) contains a couple of sloppy Britishisms—terms that would be commonplace in the UK, but have no place in a US character's mind. Particularly if they're a poorly educated child. Whitaker's language is so precise, so clear, that having something like that just takes me out of the text—ruining the spell.

Secondly, Whitaker's sparse style occasionally works against him. Every now and then the prose works against him, making a scene difficult to parse. Just a few more words (judiciously placed, obviously) to flesh things out could help.

I wish I could say that I enjoyed this book—I really do. But I didn't. I did fall under its spell, the stark, bleak outlook affected me (I wonder how I'd have reacted to a thing or two if Duchess's and Walk's plights weren't in the back of my mind the last couple of days). This is not your typical Crime Novel. It's not written in the typical fashion, with typical characters and motivations, with typical ends in mind. The terms “moody” and “atmospheric” seem like understatements. It is powerful, skillfully written—and will stay with you for quite a while.

Do yourself a favor, take the plunge.


My thanks to Tracy Fenton and Compulsive Readers for the invitation to participate in this tour and the materials (including a copy of the novel) provided via NetGalley.

A murder mystery that kept me entertained, especially since it has a fierce 13 year old at its center. But there was something off in the calibration of certain character motivations. And some plots twists felt a bit too far-fetched and/or sloppy.

Hands down one of the best books I've ever read. It took me a while to adjust to the author's somewhat odd writing style (run-on sentences, joined with commas) but the story itself reminded me of Jane Harper's The Dry and Elizabeth Wetmore's Valentine in terms of its memorable characters, heart-wrenching situations, and insights into the human condition. Duchess will live in my mind forever. And the last twist that revealed where Star had gone all those years was heartbreaking.

When I began, I did not immediately fall in love with the characters, and I don't generally read thrillers ... but I knew that it had come highly recommended, so decided to give it a chance, and am so glad I did. I could not put it down – to the detriment of the work I needed to have gotten done. I would have finished it in one day except I wanted to save one chapter to read this morning. It's beautifully written, with interesting characters and plenty of plot twists. Loved it!

I'm not sure I can adequately put into words how this one made me feel. This is not a happy story, but it is a beautiful one. Sometimes through pain, we can find our true selves. What we do with the knowledge once we have it...that defines us.

Duchess is an endearing character. She worries over her brother, Robin. He is first. His happiness. His well being. Just him. There is so much pain there as she tries to be everything their mother, and the father they don't know, isn't. It's a lot for one so young to take on. But she is an outlaw and take it on she does.

My heart broke so many times throughout their story, and yet even through the dark, light and hope is what the reader is left with when done. Definitely recommend this one.

Took me a while to get into, but when I did, I was IN